Happy daggers

Flowers from our lovely listeners.
Flowers from our lovely listeners.

This morning I’m going to watch Sunday Morning in the morning (a first in many months), clean out a few cabinets, catch up on our laundry, and get ready for the week ahead.

While I know it’s waiting for me, I probably won’t listen to the tribute episode of Manic Mommies posted by a listener, or write back to the people who have sent me and Erin emails, letters or other incredibly kind comments and gifts.

I have been humbled and amazed by the outpouring Erin and I have received since retiring from Manic Mommies just two weeks ago.

Each post, each note, and each tag is a “happy dagger” to my heart – and recalls something my daughter said on the day before we said good-bye to Claudia. .  . “I don’t want the fun ever to end.”

Retiring from Manic Mommies was absolutely the right choice for me and Erin, but as I’ve said, it wasn’t a decision that was easy, or made lightly. And while our community is adjusting to the new normal, so am I.

I don’t know if I’m up to the task of explaining that, while I am grateful and gratified to see our community connect with each other, share their memories and photos from our past events, and plan for a future getaway (whoop!) I am not quite ready to participate in the conversation myself. I worry about sounding ungrateful or uncaring, when the opposite is the truth.

Just a few of the pictures shared.
These pictures fill me with joy and tears.

I’m writing this today to say thank you, and keep photos, notes and happy comments coming. But please understand if it takes me some time to come out to play.

It’s awfully hard to type through the tears and laughter.

10 thoughts on “Happy daggers

  1. where is this tribute episode by a listener??? I want to hear it! 🙂

    Miss you guys but I totally get the need to move on. Hope you keep blogging though so we can still stay up on your lives!


  2. Sounds like a very normal process of grieving. While retiring may have been the best decision for you and Erin, you can still grieve for Manic Mommies. You’ll know when you’re ready to play again. In the meantime, (((hugs))) and thank you!


  3. Me too! Where is the tribute episode!? And is there an escape being planned. I would love to know more or Whte to look.


  4. Thank you so much for all your years of hard work creating this wonderful gift for all of us manic mommies. I will miss the podcast so much.


  5. So thankful to you and Erin for all the time you gave to your listeners and the joy and laughter it brought. Enjoy figuring out the “new normal!” I look forward to following you here and in whatever other projects you might take on in the future!


  6. I miss having you in my earbuds! but I also totally “get” the need to move on. I was always in awe of how you could do the podcast in the first place! You Ladies are truly amazing.

    As for not listening/reading/responding, I get that too. My Dad died 5.5 years ago and I finally feel like I might be strong enough to read all of the lovely cards that people sent me when he died. Until now I just haven’t been able to. I saved them, of course, it was just too painful to read them then…and until now.

    Everything in your own time. Until then, starting up a new blog should keep us all happy. Thanks! 😁


  7. So happy to find this! Manic Mommies helped be to “grow up” as a mom. Listening to to your stories that rang so familiar to me helped me to be more confident mother, wife and professional. Manic Mommies will be missed but if there is one thing that I have learned from those years of listening is that every one has to make the best choice for themselves and their families at that particular point in time. Mondays won’t be the same with out you but I wish all the best you and Erin and your families. Thank you!


    1. Thanks Shannon! I don’t know how frequent (or infrequent) my updates will be, but I’m happy to have you along for the ride. (And appreciate your understanding of our decision).


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